My audition today wasn’t so much an audition as it was practice. The band was pretty much looking to me to join. As flattered and surprised as I am, I’m also a little hesitant.
Orchestral black metal is a challenge. My tremolo picking is rusty as all hell.
This will also shelve my own project for the foreseeable future… Sex Metal.
Is this really what I want? Or am I choosing something I’m not really passionate about because the project is already on its way to being signed?
I love the music itself and the people involved are intelligent and fun to be around.
I suppose I will just play it by ear and take it slow.
In other news, I’m auditioning for an orchestral black metal band in an hour.
Needless to say, I am inspired.
For the second day in a row, I’ve had nightmares about my ex. This morning, I literally woke up sweating. Over a month has passed since we broke, but the torment is no less than day one, even though more pain has ensued since then. You tell me if what she’s doing is totally fucked.
She met a guy on a Saturday.
Broke up with me on a Sunday.
Slept with him on Monday.
Showed up at my house Tuesday with a hickie. Lied to me about it.
Bailed on me 2 weeks ago when I needed to pick shit up from her, then I walk in on them together when I try to pick shit up.
This is all after I’m just starting to feel better from my Crohns surgery in FUCKING January!!!!
The girl I knew died the moment she started dealing drugs. I miss that girl terribly.
I’m at my wits end. My late uncle’s house got foreclosed because the certified check I sent in the mail to pay it off got lost.
After paying back taxes, bills, etc., I don’t have enough to pay it off.
Meanwhile, my sister has done nothing to contribute and is not cooperating even further.
I just want this year long nightmare to be over.